Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Kill ya self (+blog)

Beats Bodied by Bars
Mar-q







This track sounds like an extremely negative song, but its only negative towards negativity. I'm not encouraging suicide but more so wishing death on negative behavior. I touch on my difficulties trying to succeed as a rapper as well.

I also decided to do a quick blog because of a conversation a had with my friend last night. We were talking about how everyone seems to have waited until they were close to turning 30 years old to start trying to get their life together. I said "yeah you guys dont have no ambition" and he proceeded to tell me how I just recently started working hard and i'm no different.......boy did this get me upset (which is not much of a reaction because i dont really get too upset over anything). I explained to this man that I was on my way to being a damn project manager at J.P. Morgan Chase back in 08 but that whole recession shit got out of control. in 2012 i went to a whole bunch of shows by myself and had to wait from 9pm to 2pm just to perform in front of 20 or less people,I had to save up to buy a camera and eventually a laptop with editing software, just so i could make some videos. You put in 300% and get 5% back and have your friend tell you that you aint doin shit...... I am not complaining i'm just  telling a quick summary of my "journey". I'm still extremely far from where I want to be but the progress is there. Living a regular life scares me to death. Going back to school just to upgrade my Associates degree to a bachelors and then get a job I give no fucks about is not what i'm trying to do in life. I ended up with 2 career, long term jobs that would have allowed me to live a cozy life, but thats the easy way out, that's not what i'm about or interested in. I dont like talking to people, MOST people irritate the shit out of me but I still go out to shit(events) and network, thats how I end up growing as a person. This is the reason I dont like to write blogs on a whim, because after stopping to re-read what i have typed so far I noticed this is kind of all over the place and un organized. I will cut this short and just end it with "How yall respect the abs and not the sit ups"

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